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Simple OperationHe hated himself for sitting so frozen. "It's really a simple operation, Jig," he said. "It's not really an operation at all." He was totally still except for his mouth it felt like.
The girl looked at the ground the table legs rested on. She was blank and hidden. Her voice was surprisingly strong despite having been silent for what seemed to be hours and hours as she said and not asked, "And you think then we'll be all right and be happy."
"I know we will. You don't have to be afraid. I've known lots of people that have done it." He didn't. He knew one person who had but he never met her. There was silence again. The warm wind blew the bead curtain against the table.
He so fervently wished it never happened. He also wished he could move, but moving before she did seemed like it would be going against the laws of nature. Apples falling upward seemed more probable at that point.
The very moment he was convinced she had turned into stone, she looked up at him
WantI want him.
This rapt and
That pine, that perish
we all know.
I want him to hum into my ear,
beneath my ceiling of stucco.
I want him to stop
me, with arms
so his head can rest
at the base of
my neck on
I want him to reach for my hand
his quiet movement from a calm
I want him to map out trails
skin as we lay
discussing the texture of linen.
I want him to sing to himself
as he walks calmly
I want him to smile against my
chest because my
hand in his
hair lulls him
I want him to photograph
an instant, a
subtle blur of a smile
so he'll have a
moment to keep.
I want him to look at me and even
if it's just for a drop
in an sea of hours:
nothing else in
Day SuicideMy day was another suicide.
Luckily days can fade or burn or bloom,
And arrive promptly, with confidence,
I sometimes kill my day with cruelty,
Perhaps unfairness, too.
Tiny injustices that seem to weigh
The entire concept of our cosmos
But its only in your mind.
Your selfishness and self-murder;
Pain because you dont want to forget.
To ensure your memory is still alive
Day must die.
A memory that creates an emotion,
Deadly to your spirits and your day,
But at least you do not long for it.
You do not pine for the memory.
You die instead,
So the memory can live.
For the Sake of Mary Ann PrimChapter One
George Percival Higgins Jr. was sixteen years old and awkward. Not to the extent of being wince-worthy, but enough for one to know the poor boy was awkward. He stood at six feet and a quarter inch, towering above most of the boys in his class who werent basketball players, with gangly limbs jutting out in random directions.
Oh, and he wasnt actually sixteen; he was technically fifteen years old until tomorrow, but out of anxiety for the big one-six, he already rounded up. He did not know, however, how important this particular birthday would be in the grand scheme of his adolescence, and how important it was that his birthday had not yet
As George stared at his pasty reflection in the bathroom mirror, toothpaste still foaming at the mouth, he narrowed his eyes as if to look tough, or, actually, failed to look anything remotely tough since he still had toothpaste all over his mouth. George actually only narrowed his eyes because he didnt have his gl
The Wall of Your BackDarkness. Crickets. They chirp. Piercing the silence. We lay in bed together. Were not really together though since youre plagued. I know you are because somehow I can feel it coursing through you. The guilt doesnt just stay in you, no, it flows around us and over me who cant feel the awful sensation. I instead feel an acute pain from the barrier you suddenly dropped between us, reminding me that I should have left, and I would have given anything to disappear vanish right then and there.
And no matter the circumstance, I was rejected, and your rejection hurt me more than anything else did, and if I couldnt leave then I wanted your arms around me, holding me tight against your chest, stroking my hair, keeping me safe and assured that you cared for me still despite all of our wrongs. I have nothing but those contradictory desires gnawing and grating at some hidden place that then clenches my heart, shuts my throat, creates burning tears that can
How to be a Hopeless Romantic You gotta sit there first. Yes, just sit there. Start to daydreamif youve never daydreamed, just space out. Now smile like you just ate a big hot fudge sundae with extra fudge. You just imagined a hugit didnt have to be you actually getting the hug, but still, you imagine a great big warm hug.
This hug, that just the idea of it put that ridiculous smile on your face, was one of those hugs that people give each other after a long awaited reunionprodigal son type of things. Its also the type of hug that you imagine youd give to someone you loved who died but came back to life for a moment only for that hug. Any hug that strong and that encompassing always has a sadness to it. I mean, because you know that the hug has to end.
Next, feel the tugging desire at the pit of your stomach that wants to keep holding on to that hug. Even if youre just witnessing it, you still feel that tug somewhere. Suddenly, the overwhelming
The Turtle and His RockA turtle sat on a rock. The turtle liked his rock. The rock was cool and comfortable and covered in crisp green moss.
The turtle had been sitting on that rock for a long, long time. The moss even started to grow on him.
The turtle heard about many places, but he never went to them. He liked the place he heard from the bird called the pond the most. It was filled with water and many interesting creatures and had tasty food other than moss. He always wanted to go swimming.
But the turtle was a little scared to leave his rock. He only heard about other places from his friends. He was a slow walker, too; it could be a dangerous walk. He decided to stay on his rock.
One day, the wind blew a very nice smell over to the turtle. The wind came from where the pond was. It was very fresh and smelled like flowers. Even though flowers grew near his rock, the flower he smelled now was different.
The turtle felt very curious. He was actually so curious he stretched out his neck as far as
Another KissThat was the tenth.
Yes, the tenth.
And I looked away
Last time you had to.
This time I had to.
The next time I dont think
It starts with a look.
We continue to look.
And we pine 'til we finally
But this urge I get.
The urge you get.
Is strong, but the bubble
Its bad, I know.
Cant be, you know.
Thats why we are where we
Look, the eleventh.
God, the eleventh.
The kiss: a look from
She Blinded me with Candy
Remus collapsed onto the comfortable mass of the old chair in Nymphadoras room. A great sigh burst from Remus as he felt his whole aching, tired self relax and sink into the chair.
Today had been too much for his old body to handle.
The moment he thought it, he could almost hear Nymphadora laughing at his exaggeration. But no matter what the truth really washe felt exhausted beyond measure.
Thankfully he knew everyone was safe and alive. If he hadnt checked at the Burrow for the most recent updates on everyone, he would have been far too anxious and worried to enjoy the comfort of this glorious chair.
Merlin this chair is amazing, he said to himself as he sank deeper into the cushion,
If only I had a bit of chocolate or something He closed his eyes and right as he felt himself sink into sleep, a fearful chill forced him awake again.
She was supposed to be back already! His eyes shot open before he even completed the thought. T
Why am I still alive? Why am I still on this earth? Why does no one care?
What makes me so unlovable? What makes people hate me so much? What can I do to be excepted in this hell we call life?
How do I get everyone to except me? How do I except myself?
It's these questions that puzzle me, that keep me up at night, that drag my spirit down, down, down into oblivion. The hows, the whats, the whys. They all blur together to create one big, crushing ball of confusion and loathing.
It's these great unanswerable questions that kill me inside, I've tried ignoring them; it doesn't work. I've tried answering them; I can't find the answers.
I've always wondered why we all care about little things like this, why we all let it get to us. But now I know, I know we can't help it. It's the power of suggestion, when one person says something, whether it's true or not, we believe it. We can't help that our brains are wired like that, we're all just self loathing robots awaiting our deat
MoreOnce there lived two generals,
one said, “99 percent.”
The other, “98 percent.”
among the people of their land, some
began preaching of God’s hand. “He
shall bless me if I follow General Sal,”
one religious man spoke.
“& I shall fallow General Xan,”
spoke a different man.
“Because God blesseth those…
Only those who follow, of God!”
The village peoppe ported way,
for separation was the warriors notion.
War between the peoples,
then came. Sultry deities
brought terror to the land.
The 98% of General Xan floated down
Subsequently, God asked Sal to lower to 96%
Two God’s were thrashing,
Until the ocean swept them
away beyond their epoch,
& dogmatic sulking sun of noir.
Puss!There once was a cat.
This cat had a home, in this home there was a mouse.”Mr. Sniffles,” was
this mouses’s name. There was a photo of Mr. Sniffles, one each was a mouse wearing a mustache.
Sometimes Puss, the cat, would have a conversation with Squeaky, the mouse.
Squeaky was a female. “I don’t like a mouse the cat is after,” said Squeaky.
Of course Squeaky & Puss began to laugh.
“Why yes, there’s nothing worse,” said Puss. Puss felt like
such a great cat. Puss wanted to show Squeaky her room. As seconds passed Squeaky soon fund way to Puss’s bed. A few bends around the corner of the clock, Squeaky ran out the door.
Mr. Sniffles taught Puss well,
“Never trust one with a nose & tail.” When Mr. Sniffle returned home he found Puss, “Purr purr.” Puss likes to devour the meat.
Squeaky was an inverse, petite rodent; when she looked in the mirror
she saw a great cat!
Mr. Sniffles felt so a
Hold ItIt's like holding your breath for a minute.
If you haven't experienced that sensation, go ahead and try it now since you've got nothing to lose and it'll help you better understand the story.
That first twenty seconds is like a walk in the park. Like, gosh, I didn't know I was so gifted at holding my breath. I am the best.
Then about halfway through it, you start feeling a pressure, right? Not exactly a panic, but you are just waiting for the moment when you can just start breathing again-- like normal.
Just five seconds after that you start panicking a little. Oh, god it has only been five seconds how am I going to handle twenty-five more seconds of this? Because now every second feels like your lungs are starting to collapse a little.
Every second is a struggle to not breathe, to go against nature just to reach an arbitrary goal of sixty seconds. And every second feels like an abomination; you shouldn't be feeling this pressure, you should be enjoying oxygen intake like a regul
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